Double Rainbow 🌈

Double rainbows are one of my absolute favorite things to witness on this Earth. 🌍

Tonight, I left the nail salon. 💅

It was pouring rain and lightning while I was in there trying to relax, while juggling the constant incoming chaos in my phone. 📱

But that’s normal, right?

Apparently the correct answer is NO.

But I’m not normal. I never have been. And I hate to break it to you… I never will be.

I was born for greatness. Whether anyone likes it or not.

It’s not for them to like. It’s not for them to understand. It sure as hell is not for them to approve of.

I don’t need anyone’s approval anymore.

I have been a YES person my entire life. It is exhausting, if we’re being real.

I’d rather be real than fake, so please just bear with me here for a few.

I am a perfectionist. I want to be perfect. Everyone wants me to be perfect. Everyone EXPECTS me to be perfect.

So, what do I do? I want to please them. I want to be perfect. Every. Single. Day.

But I’m not.

I NEVER will be.

That’s a hard pill to swallow.

So I try not to.

I work my ass off every day trying to be the best woman I can be.

The best mom. The best daughter. The best friend. The best worker.

Just a random night out at UF. I absolutely loved my time there. I truly went through the good, the bad, and dare I say it… THE UGLY.

The best lover.

But I’m not.

I’m none of those things.

My entire life, I have been second.

I have never been good enough for the people around me.

Long walks, runs, hikes and swims with my dog, out in the nature enjoying God’s Country help me feel peace in my chaotic life.

Why?

I don’t know.

Hopefully, one day I will know why I wasn’t good enough for them.

They were good enough for me.

Are you ready for it?